I was expecting something else; the last sentence was a trip
and made me think you were just tripping balls.
Now, about your first paragraph: I have always been the kind of person who internalizes her pain and problems because I just think that other people already have their own issues and mine will make them feel worse. I learned to reach out but I still can't ask for help (expect anonymously, like in this forum, and is usually about relationships) .
I read somewhere once that we need to see both sides of the argument but sometimes it is hard to see the other person's point of view, but trying doesn't hurt