Umm it sounds like something else is going on.
Come on now .. I have lived in the Western world (3 countries) all my life and I don't get the message that light skin etc .. is prettier than dark skin.
Even when I do pick up on this .. I feel good enough about my own beauty to blow it off. You really have to take what you see on TV or whatever with a grain of salt.
Hey, I know a lot of White people and guess what? They don't feel good about their looks either! They have all sorts of self esteem issues.
I think probabaly your family did not offer you a good enough support system or they did not enstill some basic self esteem in you ... if the values of the Western world can have such an infuence on you.
If it's that big of a deal I would say you need to seek Counseling and get to the bottom of it ... because I guarantee this so called standard of beauty thing cannot be THE THING that is making you feel inferrior and is affecting your mental state such that you want to want to move to a non-Western county.
I think the fact that you were using bleaching cream to begin with ... speaks volumes about what's going on in your head .. and that kind of thinking had to have started a long time ago.
Think about it.
Either way .. if your mental state is in jeapardy .. seek counseling. I mean what if you move and everyone there feels the same way? Then what?
Edited by Printer_Ink - Aug 10 2013 at 2:31pm