my mom scared me last night
she was crying hysterically saying we didn't love her and if we didn't let her go die...
i thought she was just a sad drunk but i see shes way more messed up, depressed even.
i just told her i loved her and she needs to stop talking like that
then she was sad about my gma who passed 5 years ago and how she wanted to see her again.
and then brought up that my brother has a job now and living for him.
i mean isn't this supposed to be something to be happy for? my brother having a job is good
but i felt she said that like he's growing up and soon he'll leave her
and soon i will too....
like, how am i supposed to try and leave out of state for school when she cries at the thought if we leave her, we don't love her. like, how do i not feel guilty for living my own life while i feel im making her feel that way
idk what to do. she woke up earlier with her eyes all cried out. im just really worried and her bf doesn't seem to pay her any mind when shes acting like this
but i feel like she the person she is when she's sober isn't really who she is. shes sad and depressed and idk how to deal. im the only one that went to check on her when i heard her cry...
i dont know what to do, it seems like anything i do its going to hurt her regardless
and i dont like talking to her when shes like that.
Edited by missunfoolish - Jul 05 2014 at 9:28am