i say i want this strong, masculine, dominant dude..
but when i cuss at him and he tries to check me about talkin to him a certain way i don't like it… i do but i don't.
i need to figure out what i want. i think i want someone who will make me be submissive cus I'm very dominant if i can be.. but when he relaxes and is a little sweeter i get more dominant… which makes him get way more dominant.. its like this fight for power.. and he feels like I'm trying to take advantage of him being sweeter.. but i don't think i wanna fight for power.. i want him to be in power.. but i can't help it. I'm just hella bossy and a certain way… my mouth says one thing but my actions say another.
on one side i feel like, 'over stepping my boundaries..? negro i don't have any boundaries TF up, ill get at you how i see fit if i don't like what u say to me" but on the other side i like that… but he had a point.. he was like if i cussed at you you would have had a huge issue.. give me the same respect. I wussied down though and i was just like, ok.. i didnt need to cuss..
maybe i just need a super nice soft guy
my whole life.. ppl always told me thats the kinda guy i need to end up with. i don't want that though.
Edited by coconess - Nov 23 2013 at 3:23pm