ive had a few tingles in my lifetime.. none from him last night.. it was just pain.
i think i get horny from time to time.
yes cherry i have thought about that.. i think its really something in my head (in addition with me needing to relax) but i still feel broken.
i wont be on that rinse and repeat bullshat.. even though i like him and he has done some really nice things for me.. i was ready to end it. i even kinda tried to but he didnt let it happen and in the back of my mind i kept thinking about always wondering, 'what if..' cus hes like the first guy i could have actually seen lasting for a little while..
i think ive always wanted someone that could overpower my controlling/bossiness tbh... ppl have always told me ill end up with some pushover or a white guy cus theyre the only guys that will be able to deal with me.. and that is a huge turn off.
hes the only person thats made me be submissive (there were other guys that probably could have done that, but i didnt like them enough to hang around to see that) .. so yea i think thats why i was going along with his controllingness... but i feel that going away cus i dont feel the same after the way he was acting.
sigh.. we'll see what happens..
Edited by coconess - Jul 21 2013 at 1:42pm