I'm getting married to a man I am deeply in love with, I'm going to be an aunt, I have work I like and I make very good money considering I started at entry level, I'm traveling all of the time, I'm enjoying my friends, seeing new place and learning new things yet I've been feeling really guilty lately. I miss my mommy
a LOT. Sometimes I feel selfish for being happy with my life. Like, I'm alive, enjoying the world, and she's not here. I know it may sound irrational but every time I'm having a really great time, I'll get a ping of pain in my heart. My fiancé noticed it. He told me that every time I laugh or I see really happy, they'll be a moment where the joy fades from my eyes and it's like I'm forcing the smile and laugh at that point until the moment passes. Le Sigh.