(Random) Everyday Thoughts!!

Its like I go though these cycles with my hair one day I love my curls and the next I'm missing my weave. Today is a missing my weave day. Maybe its the fact that all my friends have weave and it just reminds me of how beautiful I thought I was when I had all that hair, or maybe its that I have been trained to think that straight hair is prettier on black women. Either way I am going through it. The whole reason I decided that I wanted to go completely natural (never had a relaxer just stopped wearing weaves and adding heat) was because I wanted to be able to feel beautiful as god made me. but seeing everyone around me with this long flowing hair just messes with me. maybe i just need some natural friends, but its like every black girl on campus has a long flowing weave. 

i was in the gym last week, and noticed this huge AA woman who started working out there lately.  Can't help but notice her, there aren't too many of US in NM. Specifically, santa fe.

I felt kind of embarrassed for her.  Some unskilled beautician slapped weave on her head, and it basically looked ridiculous.  What's worse, i used to walk around with that straight hair thinking i was the sh&*t because i paid thousands of dollars for it.

She's swinging her  waist length hair as if it had transformed her from common woman to a millionaire.  Little does she know that in a majority of Mexicans and whites? they KNOW it's not your hair. To her face, they say: "Wow! is that all your hair?"  They know it's not. Especially when they go with the weave check.

when you wear a natural style/wig, let's say kinky curly, short wigs, afros , etc.,they think twice before saying "That's not her hair.".  Wearing these are more of my natural hair texture/pattern - and keeps me out of their radar..

Wow!

i am a member of a social anxiety forum.  There are members that get themselves "banned" on purpose because they are addicted to the site once they've joined.

femmemuscleisback wrote: Hey thanks, Nars.  you're mom has my vote.  Maybe Pharmaceuticals will be a lot better environment for you.  I just worked with some pharm-techs, a few days ago?  many of them have "social anxiety", i didn't know this.  so for them to just deal with folks on the phone, or just ring up people's medicine - it's ideal for them. I have "social anxiety" and there are days that if i didn't have that "professional personality"? i wouldn't make it in this field. I thought it was kind of amusing that folks from the U.S., understood the story, whereas several UK people just didn't see us as having emotions, or that we get tired, or annoyed or that we are even human.  they just see us as some strange "thing" that has to attend to people's needs - 24/7..no question.. i'm sure every one from the UK doesn't think that way..

Ehhh maybe but honestly I feel like I am wasting my time.  But upward and onward as nobody has said lol.

femmemuscleisback wrote: well, you can have the best of both worlds. wigs are great.  i've always liked curls. wasn't a huge fan of straight hair during my hair journey.  Thus, i don my curly wig, and when i'm done with it at the end of the day?  i take it off and play with my poodle turd.