Im so sorry honey!! I am still trying to deal with death myself..
I lost my mother in August of this year.. Last Wednesday on my mom's birthday, November 28, my 15 year old cousin shot herself in the head and killed herself..
Just had her funeral last Saturday..
Death is something that you never get over, but you learn to cope and live with it eventually. I am still in the denial phase of my mom's death. I feel numb. I feel like life is not worth living.. I have my good days and I have my bad days.. These holidays have been terrible. I am getting a triple whammie.. Thanksgiving, my mom's birthday, and Christmas.. And now I have my mom's birthday to remember the death of my younger cousin.. And Thanksgiving 2013 is guess what?? On my mom's birthday..
The only thing I can suggest is to take it one day at a time.. Time heals wounds.. It does not feel like it now.. Hell, I don't know if I even believe what I am saying myself.. But this is just something that time will have to do what it does best. Think of the good times you had with him.. Think about the things yall shared, laughed about, or talked about. Just try to keep the good memories alive of him.. He wouldn't want you being sad.. But its hard.. Trust me, I know first hand on how hard it really is..