dumping a friend.

yes--she was a hater that wanted what I had.

A lot of them. I don't surround myself with basic o's.

Yes. Kept up too much drama that I didn't want to be bothered with.

yeah im going through it now. she keeps trying to contact me and trying to see my kids who she was like an aunt to. she is a very selfish, vindictive ,passive aggressive person. it took me 12 years to see her true colors because i was in denial. id be lying if i said i didnt miss her though. but i dont have time for that in my life.

It hurts but I had to distance myself from my cousin. I guess you can say we were best friends growing up. We did everything together. His grandmother lived literally across the street from my grandmother, so we were kind of inseparable. We had our fist fights and whatnot, but the very next day we'd be back to being friends. 

His mom was in and out of jail for dealing drugs. His father was in prison. He lived with his grandma but when his mom was out (which never lasted long) we'd spend time with her over in the projects. Was the first and only time I saw drug dealing up close and personal. I even unknowingly participated in a drug deal once. His mom, uncles, dad, etc have always been about that life, and when it came calling, I guess I shouldn't have been shocked when he started getting in trouble.

As teens, we still chilled together, but we were obviously going in separate directions. He started getting arrested monthly. Not going to school. Tats. Grill. High ALL of the time. We were virtually opposites as we hit our late teens. When I found out from my female cousin that he put a gun in her face over an argument, I knew then that I couldn't be chilling with him anymore.

He's pretty much Chief Keef now. Has two daughters from different women. Was shot last year. Still spending all of his time in the projects. I saw him around the holidays. It was my first time seeing his youngest daughter. Felt kind of sad. I was explaining to his baby momma how close we used to be. She said something about us needing to reconnect so he could have a positive influence. He ended up making the joke that people like to make, along the lines of "oh you too fancy now."

Really had nothing in common with what they liked to do. Smoke, and drink. All we had was the past to laugh about. My mom used to tell me all of the time that we'd grow apart. Could have sworn when we were 14 that he'd be my best man. Past 10 years have changed a lot.

That's really the only friend I made a decision about. I couldn't be around that when he really got about that life. 


Edited by Random Thoughts - Jan 30 2013 at 9:42pm