This is my first post in the TTT section, so please bear with me.
Have any of you battled with depression?
I ask because I'm starting to realize that for the last couple of months, this funk I've been in hasn't disappeared. After Googling some things, I'm realizing that I really fit the bill as far as being depressed goes. & I'm actually kind of frustrated with myself.
I didn't want to label what I'm going to as depression because apart of me kind of feels like it's a cop out. & the fact that I can't really pinpoint exactly why I'm feeling the way that I feel make it any better. I always thought people who said they were depressed were being overly dramatic, until I found myself in the situation.
I've literally cut myself off from everyone... & my friends are pretty pissed about it. They feel like I'm cutting them off but in reality, I just don't want to be around them because I feel like I'll bring the vibe down.
I've been battling insomnia, migraines, & lack of energy. I really just feel unmotivated to do anything. My attitude has been really crappy, especially at work, & it's really starting to take a toll on my performance. & although I haven't done a lot to fix my situation besides pray & meditate (which was a fail, I couldn't turn my brain off), I really don't know where to start when it comes to this. & I'm really frustrated with myself because I feel like I'm just wallowing in sadness.
Being that I'm in the military, I really don't want to go to the doctor because they take things like this to a whole other level. It's like they start to pacify you or throw antidepressants at you. Once you claim your depressed, they put it on your record & it follows you everywhere. & I really don't want that to happen. I'm not thinking about harming myself or anyone else, but I am just miserable right now.
Damn, this is long...
So has anyone battled depression? If so, what did you do to combat it? I really don't want to resort to taking pills, I want to deal with it naturally. I think I'm strong enough to push past this, but I just don't know where to start & if there really is a light at the end of this damn tunnel, especially since I don't even know how I got in the damn tunnel.
Any advice, stories, or help would be great..