My hair is in such horrible condition since August 2012. I literally just had a break down of what's going on with my hair. It's to the point where I'm depressed and beating myself up now.
August 2012 - Got invisible braids for college. They kept falling out.
Late August 2012/September 2012 - Got 1 pack of hair online for 50$, spent additional money to make clip ins
October 2012 - Bought Cuticle Kiny Straight hair, made clip ins
November 2012 - Got invisible braids with Janet Remy Collection (cost me about 180 for 2 packs). Braids kept falling out. Hairstyle didn't even last ONE week! I spent 150 on the hairstyle as well.
December 2012 - Purchased AAMH Kinky Curly. That sh*t is a tangling & matting mess.
January 2013 - Purcahsed a closure and 2 packs of virgin hair to make a wig/weave in hopes of my hair getting a TRUE break. I ordered a certain length and measured it They sent me the wrong length and I sent pics of the hair with a ruler. They refuse to give me money back. Also spent money on bleach to bleach the closure and dome cap and glue and thread and needle.
What do I do at this point? Braids fall out no matter how much I spend, hair is too short for a weave, clip ins get frustrating but I always go back to it. When I was 15, I cut of all my hair and wore a wig (the wrong way may I say) from January to May, when it was long enough for those kinky twists braids. I continued to wear the braids from May 2009 to May 2010 when my hair ALMOST reached shoulder length (the longest it ever was). I ruined it with the constant flat iron for summer 2010 to match with the clip in extensions. Since then my hair's been downhill. I'm 19 now and in college. I've been moisturizing my hair with JCBO, argon oil, massages, deep conditioner weekly, wrap my hair up to avoid daily flat ironing, been taking biotin. It's like what the heck am I doing wrong?!
Nice hair that isn't short is what makes me attractive, sadly. I'm getting so freaking tired of doing this buit I can't "rock" a short haircut. My hair has broken off so much to the point where the back of my head and the sides are less than 1 inch. Vertically down 5 inches of my head (minus the sides) the hair loks as if "someone cut it off".
I guess you can say I'm insecure with my hair short. I admit that. But now I'm starting to hate myself for foolishly spending money EACH month (the money I get from the government by the way) in hopes of a way to grow my hair while looking attactive. At home, I could hide my hair as long as I wanted to and not go out. But here, I can't do that. I got to share a bathroom with a bunch of white mixed and latina girls with LONG beautiful hair. That's all I want. Just long beautiful hair. I just want to shave it all off again and start over using a wig but I just tried to use a wig with a lace closure and it was COMPLETE sh*t! I just wish I could do something with my hair to the point where it will just grow and I can use natural looking extensions while it's growing.
I was so excited for this wig. I was going to get my hair cut down nicely and I wanted to do something like this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6uHTPMrOIW0&list=PLbS2Q9LIBx9zjJlVbQJmOWiflIj8yVzXk&index=1 - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6uHTPMrOIW0&list=PLbS2Q9LIBx9zjJlVbQJmOWiflIj8yVzXk&index=1
looks simple, right? Well I must have bad luck because apparently I can't even do that with my closure. I followed all the Youtube tutorials on how to do make the wig. I just...I don't know, I guess I'm ranting.I holed myself up in my dorm since 3PM yesterday (it's 6:35AM) because I'm just so sick of my hair and how nothing ever works out! My battle with my hair all my life has been so frustrating. I hate hairstyles that look unnatural and fake. That's why I was really excited for the closure. I am LITERALLY broke right now until January 31st.
Please any advice to help me out, especioally with my hair One thing I absoloutely refuse to do is wear my hair short all on its own. I think it's best I shave off all my hair again. When it didn't have chemicals in it. I just want something that I can wear over my hair while I'm growing it out with VERY little leaveout.
Edited by peaceloveandcurls - Jan 10 2013 at 5:44am