Confessions

ScorpioLuv wrote: I snuck into the next section of the psych nursing class I missed this morning.

smart

And to Scorpio and Lady


I feel tired today.. Didn't sleep well last night at all.. I have two papers to write for class tomorrow. Haven't started yet... Procrastination at its finest....

I worry about the outcome of my relationship...I love him more than I thought I was capable of loving someone, but sometimes I feel like its not fair to keep him.

I was very vocal about not being able to see myself getting married and not wanting kids when we first started talking. He said he understood, and didn't want anymore kids anyway.

Here we are, and lately he keeps dropping little "casual" marriage and kids bombs. I asked about it, and hesaid her always thought I said that cuz I had been hurt before.

Not the case...I just find marriage really unnecessary (no offense to anyone who is married, or wants to be).

I probably could do it, but I'm not really passionate about the idea. The kids thing isn't really negotiable at this point. He pointed out that I love little kids.

Yeah...I like them when they're little like puppies, and you can pack them up and send them home. I'm scared to have a child's life on my hands.

As I get older...I understand better why alot of older folks live in the past.

I hope nothing is wrong with me and baby and that this is just one of many symptoms of being preggers. Last night I used the bathroom and had a bit of blood when I wiped and today I've had a headache every since I woke up. Thought it was because I was hungry but I've eaten and went back to sleep and still have it.