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I feel like I'm living a lie. I'm doing what I think is expected of me to make others happy, without considering own happiness. Because in the end, accepting family = content dOLLish., right? I know I've got a lot to learn.

I enjoy ratchet sh*t because a small part of me is intrigued by it. JYM.

I want to be left alone. I love it. But I also want someone to care enough to not want to leave me alone.

It's official, PICS bores me. I watch it because it's something to watch and not because I'm trying to get one off. Hell, it's starting to take a while to find a half decent flick.

I feel like I'm half way embarrassed about my piercings. Like, I don't want people to see them out of fear … of being judged? IDK.

I give people & their opinions way too much power over my life.

I have absolutely no social life, which is why I'm alone, sipping this hot ass Moscato at 4 in the morning.

… now I think I'm rambling.
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Originally posted by dOLLish. dOLLish. wrote:

I feel like I'm living a lie. I'm doing what I think is expected of me to make others happy, without considering own happiness. Because in the end, accepting family = content dOLLish., right? I know I've got a lot to learn.

I enjoy ratchet sh*t because a small part of me is intrigued by it. JYM.

I want to be left alone. I love it. But I also want someone to care enough to not want to leave me alone.

It's official, PICS bores me. I watch it because it's something to watch and not because I'm trying to get one off. Hell, it's starting to take a while to find a half decent flick.

I feel like I'm half way embarrassed about my piercings. Like, I don't want people to see them out of fear … of being judged? IDK.

I give people & their opinions way too much power over my life.

I have absolutely no social life, which is why I'm alone, sipping this hot ass Moscato at 4 in the morning.

… now I think I'm rambling.
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I have absolutely no clue what i want out of life right now. none whatsoever. 
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i just want to party and have fun and not care about tomorrow, i've been conditioned to always do the right thing and follow a certain path. I'm beginning to realize that "the right thing" is subjective and that i need to choose my own path.


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and most of all, i feel misunderstood. i've never been like everyone else, like i never fit in. It never really used to bother me before, i didnt mind being a loner but i do wish i had a friend that both understands me and that i can relate to.

with the "friends" i have currently, either either one or the other or sometimes im just their to give them advice without reciprocation.

The closest thing i do have is on a completely different path with being heavily religious. We were both that way at one point in our lives but things are different. She understands me to a better degree than most but she cant relate to my life or the choices i've made/make.


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I want to not work for a year and focus. On my career and see where it gets me
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Originally posted by eanaj5 eanaj5 wrote:

and most of all, i feel misunderstood. i've never been like everyone else, like i never fit in. It never really used to bother me before, i didnt mind being a loner but i do wish i had a friend that both understands me and that i can relate to.

with the "friends" i have currently, either either one or the other or sometimes im just their to give them advice without reciprocation.

The closest thing i do have is on a completely different path with being heavily religious. We were both that way at one point in our lives but things are different. She understands me to a better degree than most but she cant relate to my life or the choices i've made/make.





I know what you mean. I thought in college everyone would be like me, but I'm still an oddball. So many factors make me "weird" it's hard to explain.

I had a friend who I had known since freshman yr of college. She'd tell me I give great advice. When I tried to open up to her, she'd act all weird. I finally cut her off, our friendship was not mutually beneficial. It was me scratching her back and using a backscratcher on myself lol.
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Originally posted by Eden. Eden. wrote:

Originally posted by dOLLish. dOLLish. wrote:

I feel like I'm living a lie. I'm doing what I think is expected of me to make others happy, without considering own happiness. Because in the end, accepting family = content dOLLish., right? I know I've got a lot to learn.

I enjoy ratchet sh*t because a small part of me is intrigued by it. JYM.

I want to be left alone. I love it. But I also want someone to care enough to not want to leave me alone.

It's official, PICS bores me. I watch it because it's something to watch and not because I'm trying to get one off. Hell, it's starting to take a while to find a half decent flick.

I feel like I'm half way embarrassed about my piercings. Like, I don't want people to see them out of fear … of being judged? IDK.

I give people & their opinions way too much power over my life.

I have absolutely no social life, which is why I'm alone, sipping this hot ass Moscato at 4 in the morning.

… now I think I'm rambling.
sister, soulmate, mirror? damn lol
 
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I'm not in a good place. I'm close to breaking, again.
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I'm about to become the bitch people never thought I'd be instead of being so nice all the time. Then maybe people will learn to take me a little more seriously when I say enough is enough.
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