So there is this guy i been liking for many years maybe love idk, he does not know i like him tho.. (i know sounds crazy) but he was a family friend. I was really young when I met him, started having a crush him, but I knew he would never see me like that so i tell myself to stop liking him, as the years went by i can tell he was physically attracted to me

, we flirt time to time, he would say things here and there to say i how beautiful i looked, but i always told myself it wont go anywhere for many reasons but i when i think bout him i will forget about evrything thought of him and want to get in contact with him to tell him how i feel just to get it off my chest whether we get together or not, for example i had a dream of him, when i woke up, i started thinking about him, got on Facebook ,messaged him asked him asking how life is and then then we would exchange numbers and when talking i freak and back out my plans on telling him i liked him. anyways i just know nothing will ever happen between us but how do i get off my mind, hes that person i will forget about but years later end up wanting him idk whats wrong with me. its been many years