Anxiety Disorder

Go see a doctor

I had to listen to really relaxing music last night to finally relax

I used to have them in my awkward teen years. I noticed that they would happen if i wanted to cry, but held it in instead.

I would recommend seeing a therapist.
You may have an underlying emotional issue that you arent acknowledging or even aware of.
Have you experienced a major life event within the last year?
Do you tend to allow yourself to experience sadness/anger/grief without restriction or do you hold things in?
Do you talk to trustworthy individuals when experiencing distress?

In the mean time, start a journal and record the following when you feel a panic attack coming on:
-Time
-Date
-What you feel
-What you think
-A brief summary of something you were physically doing within the last 30 min before you started experiencing symptoms
Try to do this everyday for at least 2 weeks
By doing this you may be able to identify the triggers more easily if you notice a pattern from your notes

Also, deep breathing exercises, yoga, relaxing music, or aroma therapy can also help. Meditation may also be useful for you.

I hope you get the relief you need hun, feel free to PM me if you need to talk about it more, I've been in your shoes

also take note of certain things you eat that can trigger anxiety attacks. I stay away from coffee and any other beverage or treat that is high in caffeine, i try to make sure i get adequate sleep and stay away from stressful situations as much as possible. I also like valerian root extract ( its used to make Valium!). hope u feel better