Right back at ya!

 

What's going on with you, PRnena?

 

PS: I feel a little better today. Spent the past few days at the height of anxiety and not sleeping, but I'm picking myself back up. Must be the green smoothies, lol. I realize now I even responded to my own damn self in a post on here!

insurance companies use business analysts, all kinds of analysts

and there are short certification courses that you can take to make yourself more confident with the material, processes, project management, best practices in analysis etc

 

Honestly, I'm having doubts that he's hearing anything I have to say. Even when it comes to aspects of my personal life, I have humbled myself, I have begged. Still in the same spot. Losing faith

 

This description fits me to a T. I stood up for myself with this bully/manipulator in my team. But it is blowing up in my face. I did lose my cool during the meeting though as she sat there spewing lies after lies and I became hostile. I don't think that helped. As for that racist bytch that accosted me, I don't even give her a second glance. I treat her with disdain. But funnily enough, my boss told me recently that she is a good source for insight when I have questions about certain aspects of my work and that I should seek her out more often! I was boiling inside. That's another consequence of me not reporting her to HR when she hurled that racial slur at me.

 

But I understand what you're saying. I have to tone it down and remain calm. I don't know to what extent it's gonna help and I'm looking for another job (crossing my fingers that I find something before I get canned)

 

What I'm doing wrong, I'm trying hard to fix through therapy and trying to take care of myself as much as possible. Don't know what else I can do at this point

 

Yes I'm considering it. Not too happy about it since I've done it before and thought that part of my life was behind me, but if I must, I will. I'll have to either rent or sell my condo

 

I'm trying to. I'm looking at job offers on employment web sites. But it's not that easy. The last time I lost my job, I remained unemployed for 3 years, which prompted me to work from home. You don't just snap your fingers and get a job in your line of work just like that. I wish it were that simple

 

 That was cute. Now I know what the girl in your siggy is jammin' to

 

Thanks Zsaza

 

On the contrary, I appreciate any ideas/input you have. I've been in your situation as well, right after college. It's rough and it can leave you depleted. I studied communications/journalism and couldn't get anywhere. Which is why I turned to translation. But since it was impossible for me to get any work without experience in my city, I had to uproot myself to Toronto. Did a few years there, got the experience and a translation degree and then came back home to this shyt. So I know how it feels. The biggest struggle is keeping depression at bay because a situation like this can make you feel powerless. I think I need to read up on inspirational material myself cause right now, I'm going down...

So please don't take me throwing ideas at you as lack of sensitivity (not that you said I was being insensitive, I just don't want you to think I am). It's the way I cope...focusing on action steps. Just keep looking for unconventional ways to get where you want to be. Don't write off any idea or possibility until you've tried it. Reading inspirational things really helps me as well (a good blog I've found is The Art of Nonconformity).

You're gonna make it happen. I believe that.

 

I know. and I appreciate it. These are for specialized translators though. You just don't become an IT translator or a business/legal translator overnight. Oftentimes, these people have worked in those careers themselves before making a switch to translation. My specialty is insurance. Except that I keep getting blackballed by that former boss. Mind you, ideally, I would love to be able to translate more creative material. But like I said, it's about who you know

1. When I say cut back, I mean be RADICAL. See how much it will cost you to get out of the gym membership/training. Paying a termination fee now is a better idea if it costs less than continuing out your contract. Everything should be cut down to the minimum...no christmas gifts, no eating out, no nothing. Eat rice and beans and pb&j, heat only the room you're in, get a roommate if you have to, etc etc. It's only for now, you can do it.

2. About connections. First off, forget the former boss. Let your work speak for itself. If you don't have any connections now, how can you make some? Can you get on linkedin? Can you attend publishing conferences to meet people? Look at schools that offer translation education programs...can you take a class there and use that to tap into the resources from professors/career services? Or just go and talk to people there? Can you make yourself a professional landing page on the web and market yourself that way? I feel like there is a lot you can do here and maybe getting laid off will give you the time to actually do it. Freelancing is hard but it can be done (and you've done it before so at least you know you can). Have you checked out the blog Iwillteachyoutoberich? It's a great blog with a lot of free resources that might help you.

 

3. I get you have a mortgage and I'm definitely not an advocate for anyone being underpaid for their work. But do what you have to do if things get desperate. But I don't think you should have to do that if you really get out there.