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i let this nice guy down/go because i just cant deal with anything at the moment
the love has always seem one sided (coming from him) while i was never too sure what i felt
but i did feel something for him once

it was just never the same way he loved me
i feel bad but i know im doing him a favor, im just not ready right now

he told me if i ever change my mind hes willing to try, if its not too late

we'll see.
hope i didnt make a mistake

Long distance relationships suck the most during the holidays

Gave baby's dad an ultimatum. He wants me back, I have been gone for a month and living with my dad. My baby is due in 4 weeks. the baby's dad needs counseling really bad and I told him I won't come back to him if he does not get counseling. I even told him he can't come down here to be at the baby's birth if he does not show me paper work where he is enrolling in counseling. I'm putting my foot down. I told him I can't come back if he is behaving the same way. He has been gambling money away at casinos. He has bought the baby only a little bit of stuff. She needs more pampers and instead he's taking himself out on his disability money and treating himed to fancy meals and movies, buying himself new things. Me, I have not bought myself a damn thing. Last thing I bought for myself was a breast pump. All of my money goes to my baby or i ask my dad if he needs help paying for stuff and he never takes my money.

I'm home suffering and crying because if cramps, my back hurts because I have a kidney infection, I am up throwing up a lot and nobody is there for me except my dad. the baby's father is enjoying himself, a-hole. He thinks I'll feel sorry for him and to back on what i said. I won't, I won't expose my baby to his bad behavior.

I wish I could be happy

Is there a thread about crushes?