| missunfoolish wrote:|
but i can’t just turn my feelings off. it
doesn’t work that way because i am f-cking human.
Funny, I also used to think that I couldn't turn my feelings off but I did.
wasn't on purpose but it simply happened. The guy I thought was my
boyfriend lied to me but suddenly he knows
I am the One. I call it
bullsh!t. He is trying hard to show me that he loves me but I just don't
I became cold. Now I understand the Japanese culture and
respect it: a while ago, my sister learned from some Japanese girls who
worked with her, that in Japan one marries and THEN falls in love. The
reason why is that love ruins everything, so you need to marry and then
to love the person you are with.
That didn't make sense
when I first heard about it, being that I was another western girl who
thought she had found the man of her life and like many western girls
out there, got dumped and suffered for a long time.
Now I see
the eastern point of view and I don't give a f*ck anymore. I don't like
hurting anyone, why do men hurt me? Why do they do what they do and then
move on fast?
I feel like I will never love another man again, and I am fine with it.
boyfriend-who-wasn't-a-boyfriend-after-all is still trying. He says he
is committed to show me his love, to prove to me that he made a mistake when he lied and he is truly in love, etc but to me he is just the one who managed to
turn off my "f*cks given" button.
No f*cks given anymore. None. I am done with "love" and I am done caring.
I became a love sociopath: I feel nothing about someone else and it feels great at the same time.